Happy Sunday, friends (and acquaintances and strangers)!
I know it’s kinda funny/ironic that I missed the second week of 2022 after saying two weeks ago that it was one of my big goals for the year was to focus more on writing and my blog. But I promise, I had reason.
My mental health has really been suffering, and I was supposed to fly back to Florida after visiting my mom (and catching COVID… yikes!) or the Holidays, but my mom, therapist, and I noticed some signs that my mental health was at a place that (historically speaking for myself, of course) needs extra help to improve. So, I decided (with support from my therapist, family, and friends) to stay with my mom and self admit into PHP (Partial Hospitalization Program) at a local hospital.
I’ve done various PHPs over the years, and have always had a good experience and noticed great improvement after treatment PHP is a great option for those who are struggling with their mental health and need more than whatever their current treatment is, but don’t need inpatient treatment. It’s proactive, and is pretty much almost 40 hours a week. I’ll be going for 5-8 hours 5 days a week to begin with and have my intake assessment on Tuesday (send good vibes!). After I’ve been in the program for a few weeks, I’ll step down to IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program), which is around a couple hours a few days a week.
Since one of the major themes of this blog (and my life, haha) is mental health and wellness, I want to be honest about where I’m at right now. Everyone is telling me that they’re proud of me for asking for help and seeking treatment, but I have to be honest. There’s a part of me that feels ashamed and disappointed. Like, I’ve struggled with mental illness for over sixteen years, and have been treated for it for almost as long. Logically, I know that healing isn’t linear. That there will be ebbs in flows with my mental illness symptoms and management. And that needing extra help at times doesn’t define me or my journey.
I hope that you know that this applies to you, too. So if things are tough for you right now, I get it. You deserve support and to feel better.
But. I’m still trying to do my daily affirmations, because while they won’t cure my depression or anxiety or BPD, they do help the way I think about and speak to myself, which has a big impact on my mental health. That’s why I share my affirmations (almost) weekly, because I think that they’re an invaluable resource for mental wellness.
When I share them, I put them in the order that I (personally) will be using them, (the first is for Sunday, the second for Monday, the third for Tuesday, etc.) but I encourage you to use them in whatever order or way works best for you. Mix up the order, don’t use the ones that don’t serve you, pick ones from other weeks, practice multiple a day, etc. I am simply sharing my practice to encourage you to speak kindly to yourself, too.
Have a great week, and I’ll see you next time! You are always, always good enough.
- I am here to accomplish amazing things, and I share my gifts with the world.
- I take things one day at a time.
- My voice matters.
- I trust the process.
- I accept myself completely.
- All of my feelings are valid.
- I am not ashamed of my nourishment or hunger.